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In search of answers to questions from childhood. Why did the parents do this?

betulkondukaya
2 min readJun 27, 2024

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Have you ever wondered why your parents lived the way they did; did they act as they did and how, in general, did they get to such a life?

Sometimes it seems that you will find answers to these questions and life will become easier. That your loved ones will have some kind of answer that you will hear and everything will fall into place.

That there is some kind of explanation, knowing which you will immediately feel loved, dear and not so lonely. It’s just that my parents had reasons, that’s just how life is.

But, more often than not, parents do not have answers that would suit us.

And with our heads we can understand that my mother worked three jobs because she had to somehow survive in the 90s. But what to do with our feeling of loneliness when mom was constantly not at home or she came and fell exhausted on the sofa? Yes, she had a hard life, but was it easy for her child, who had to grow up early? He dealt with his own life, with his own problems, so as not to upset his mother once again, because she already had enough worries.

We can ask our parents why they sent us to a sanatorium in another city at the age of 5. And we will even get a completely rational answer that the child was sick and that was the way it was then. But will this cancel the confusion, resentment, loneliness and longing of the baby for his parents?

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Keep your self-talk positive and loving, because thought comes before words.

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